For a few unbearable moments, I would have been grateful to just die so that it could be over. In the back of my head, a small voice worried that my screams might wake up our small children. I did not want this scene to be their last memory of me. My fingers were twisted up in the sheets. My feet were kicking as I writhed back and forth. Sweat was dripping off of me onto the bed. A few hours earlier, I had finally gone to bed after sitting up with a terrible stomach ache. But

If you have considered walking away from the ministry, you are not alone. In fact, every year more and more ministers are walking away from ministry for good. In fact, 80 percent (4 out of every 5) pastors will quit ministry forever before year 5 of their ministry. If you have made it longer than that in your ministry, you are one of the few. But why are so many leaving?? This question has torn me up for awhile now. The most popular answer seemed to be, "Well, they just didn